DeeStar has returned....

I'm backkkkkkkkkkkkk and believe me I have a lot on my mind. My friends, Lodz and Ogonnaya; have reconnecting me back into this secret society of random blogging on the internet. (Check out their blog @ http://travellingwomanists.wordpress.com) My last blog was dated back in 2008, and let me tell ya, A LOT has happen to me in a span of 2 years. I am in a new town, new job, new friends, new hairstyle and LOTS of unusual experiences I could ever imagine myself being connected to in my quest to have dinner with Oprah and em. So please sit back, pull up a nice chair, stop cringing with all my grammatical errors and entertain yourself with the introspections of a lost soul. Some might be amused, others might be annoyed but this is one way to keep my sanity in a unfamiliar world.

DeeStar vents

I am not deep nor do I pretend to be, I am not the smartest person in the world but I'm not the dumbest tool in the tool box. I am me and I am trying to be the best me I can be. So f*ck your standards of perfection because perfection does not exist. You, yourself are not perfect so how can you expect the next person to be. We are student in this world learning new things everyday so just take life as it is, one big learning lesson with more things to come.

Love Sucks

How can you turn LOVE off? I have learned in my life that LOVE is the most powerful drug known to man. LOVE can hurt you in ways you will never imagine but some people say LOVE can be the best thing in life. If LOVE is suppose to be the best thing, why does it hurt so bad when it's over? It's like a pain you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy but maybe you would. I have always been afraid of LOVE. LOVE makes you do and think differently, things you have always warned your friends, for some reason you end up doing them when you fall in LOVE. Why? Why can't a good girl as myself find somebody to love but also not make a fool out of myself in the process. Example; I have strong feelings for this guy but my LOVE defense is to avoid it and run away. As a runaway I will be able to shield myself from any LOVE disappointment that LOVE might throw at me. But in the end you can't run from LOVE, LOVE finds you when you least expect it(which sucks). So in reality in order to experience everything in life you have to experience LOVE. The joys, the pain, the hurt and also the disappointment that LOVE might bring. So hopefully when the right person comes along you will be able to LOVE them unconditionally with no hold bar.

Choices

Choices we make in our life not only effect us but also effects the people around us. Its easy to comment on the next persons situations but be blinded about one owns, we tend to think our lay on the land are different from the next person. I try to tend not to judge other people by there inaccuracies but how they grapple with their situation at hand. We are all put on this earth to learn ones path in life so ones choices should impact not ones own but also your neighbor.